Earnestly Apologizing for my Autism Aggression

By Max Eati

To my dear family, teachers and caregivers:

I am writing this in deep sorrow to share my apologies for many instances of anger and aggression from my end.  I never intended to hurt but my autistic body knows no control.  Miraculously I am able to open my heart to changes lately.

I am also writing this in hope to help other autistics who cannot share their pain verbally or in writing.

With a loving heart,
Max

Earnestly Apologizing for my Autism Aggression

Limelight in my life
growing in my heart
Myriad of ideas
trapped in my brain

Fried by my soul
crimed with anger
Operating in shame
minced in grief

Nipped my heart
drained my spirit
No one knew
how deep it hurt

Braved my heart
to awaken my soul
Pinned myself
to feel other’s pain

Loaded with empathy
mopped with love
Trained myself
to cleanse my anger

Visualized a
peace-loving life
With no one
hurt in the end

Tiled myself to
listen to others
Sailed so long
without enough rudders

Limped this far
Forgot my life was hard
Ripped my soul
To find my heart

Kindly see my view
Eloquent is my love
Never judge my life as
molested by anger

Weary and tired
I know no fault
I kindly wait for
forgiveness by all

Listen to my heart
to know what I mean
I love one and all
in sadness and joy

Kindly smear my heart
with your love
To allow my soul
rest in joy